Someone who shines love wherever he goes and does everything within his power to create "things" which will inspire others to find positive change, chooses such a "negative" sounding name.
Well, I am here to ruin something. Ruin a delusion. I do not view my former "Family" or those who used me as my enemy. However.. I do want to try and ruin some of their agendas.
Ironically -in the Alanis sort of way- they called me The Ruiner first. Their meaning they attached to this song, so I used their joke as my name.. ha ha.. ha:
"Ruiner" by Nine Inch Nails
you had all of them on your side, didn't you? didn't you?
you believed in all your lies, didn't you? didn't you?
you believed in all your lies, didn't you? didn't you?
the ruiner's got a lot to prove he's got nothing to lose and now he made you believe
the ruiner's your only friend well he's the living end to the cattle he deceives
the raping of the innocent you know the ruiner ruins everything he sees
now the only pure thing left in my fucking world is wearing your disease
how did you get so big?
how did you get so strong?
how did it get so hard?
how did it get so long?
you had to give them all a sign, didn't you?
you had to covet what was mine, didn't you?
the ruiner's a collector he's an infector serving his shit to his flies
maybe there will come a day when those that you keep blind will suddenly realize
maybe it's a part of me you took to a place I hoped it would never go
and maybe that fucked me up much more than you'll ever know
how did you get so big?
how did you get so strong?
how did it get so hard?
how did it get so long?
what you gave to me
my perfect ring of scars
you know I can see what you really are
you didn't hurt me nothing can hurt me
you didn't hurt me nothing can stop me now
The last 3 lines - my new words to live by.
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